I am still somewhat lost, however, I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel (is that a candle I see?). Thank you for your patience and understanding.
As I said, I have been shuffling files, I have been trying to do this for about five month’s now but have managed to put it off. For someone as scattered as I am this procrastination results in the inability to find anything, ever.
It started with a picture that JJ was talking about. He wanted to show it to someone and as I am the keeper of all things digital, I had produce it while the story was still fresh. Big Question: Which computer? What folder? Did I even name the dang thing? I found it, but only as a matter of luck.
This was taken in New Mexico:
This is one of about 1700 pictures from the road trip that JJ and I took late last year. None of which were sorted by location, date, or any other semblance of order. In essence, I dumped the contents of the digital camera on not one, but two computers….and then proceeded to copy from one computer to the other. All in all, it is a big messy tangle of pictures.
Repeat this tangle for the music files and documents and you will see my predicament. Anyway, I wanted to talk about self-concept (I don’t want to stray too far from my path again). Whilst strolling through my saved ‘single web files’ I came across ‘Self-Concept’ according to the Encyclopedia of Psychology:
- Personal Self-Concept facts or one’s own opinions about oneself, such as “I have brown eyes” or “I am attractive”.
- Social Self-Concept one’s perception about how one is regarded by others, “people think I have a great sense of humor”.
- Self-Ideals what or how one would like to be: “I want to be a lawyer” or “I wish I were thinner”.
First of all, I hate their examples. I understand that there is a need for vagueness in examples, but come on… they are talking about SELF-CONCEPT. My eyes are blue but I really don’t care.
When I think of myself I think “I am a basket-case” or “I am inquisitive” or “I am a self-educator”. As for other people’s perception of me, I can only guess that they would involve descriptors such as: “strange”, “crazy”, “hyperactive” and lest I forget “sucking black void of negativity”. I’m still not over that one.
As for the third part of Self-Concept, I was caught by the definition trap. There are a few different definitions for ‘ideal’ not to mention the various conjugations, (Ideology, Idealism, Idealistic… etc.) I won’t give you all of the definitions, however, the two in my *handy-dandy for ‘ideal’ are:
- existing only in the mind, imaginary
- of or relating to perfection
- a standard of excellence
- one regarded as a model worthy of imitation
I would hope for examples that are deeper than a teaspoon. The original definition (French origin, “existing in the mind”) leaves quite a bit of wiggle room. But, when I think of Psychology and Encyclopedias, I expect more of an educational approach to definitions. For example, as a student of Psychology, my mind jumped to the ‘Id’ as in ‘the Id, the ego and the super-ego’. The ‘Id’, according to psychoanalysts, exists in the subconscious mind and deals with instinctual needs and desires. Maybe it’s just me, but I don’t see anything instinctual about wanting to be a lawyer or thinner. I guess this definition was not written by a follower of Freud.
So, with this thought still fresh in my ‘ego’ (*the organized conscious mediator between the person and reality) I continued sorting through files… and a few things clicked together in my brain – the loose strings of Plan D. I will explain, but not all at once. I don’t want to go off the deep end again. So, thus begin-eth…
The Question of Self-Concept